It's time to take my nightly pill regimen and I can't find the tiny one and a half blue Zoloft pills I am supposed to ingest in order to avoid slipping into depression.
I thought I had put the almost empty bottle on my kitchen table to remind myself to fill the prescription today. However, I don't remember seeing it when I made coffee this morning or later in the day.
I've checked all the rooms in the apartment and can't find it anywhere. I looked through the contents of my purse multiple times.
I'm trying not to worry about the consequences of missing a night of antidepressants. I wasn't feeling particularly chipper today. Perhaps this isn't the best time to go without Zoloft. But then I can't think of any night when I would want to skip the best buffer I have against turning into someone who can only cry and curl up in a ball and stare at the ceiling.
I've been taking mood stabilizers and antidepressants for a few years now but I still struggle to fill the prescriptions on time. My prescriptions have changed so frequently that for a long time each month carried with it a new regimen with new dosages and new pill names (and pretty colors). I've been taking the same combination of medication for awhile now and I wish I could have prescriptions like Zoloft filled out for several months at a time instead of getting a 30 day supply.
To be realistic though I would probably just procrastinate refilling my pills until the last minute in that scenario as well.
I'm afraid to keep looking because that means eventually I'll have to either find the pills or give up.
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